The Duchess of Kooky

Despite my sincere intentions to maintain a consistent writing routine, I found myself succumbing to distractions. Ideas floated persistently in my mind, yet each attempt to capture them resulted in their displacement within the depths of my camera roll, accompanied by reminders set and promptly dismissed. Lost amidst waves of incoherence and fog, the struggle to find the right words became palpable. The fear lingered that my words might remain imprisoned.

Embarking on take two, this marks my endeavor to engage more deeply with myself. I aim to rediscover who I am, fondly reflecting on my past self. While I excel in storytelling through visual mediums such as pictures and videos—acknowledging their potential to be perceived as trivial—I am not driven by the desire to go viral. Instead, it serves as a means of self-expression, reigniting my passion for art creation and exploring the mediums that bring me joy.

Initiating a blog was conceived as a tool to navigate through thoughts, to pen down the stories echoing in my mind or those I have lived. Although I had envisioned working on it during the pandemic to safeguard my mental well-being, that plan went awry. As a visionary, my mind teems with myriad ideas, each vying to be the breakthrough or the next big thing. The challenge lies in finding the right tribe or partner(s) to collaborate with and bring these ideas to fruition. It’s a journey that I’m confident will materialize.

Maintaining focus on a single project has proven challenging. Pre-pandemic, my hobbies were routine and consistent, with any additional pursuits often aligning with my primary interest of the time. My husband and I, for instance, immersed ourselves in swing dancing, particularly Lindy Hop and Balboa, which became the backdrop for our serendipitous meeting at a dance class—an anecdote I look forward to sharing in due course.

The pandemic prompted me to seek alternative avenues to occupy my mind and nurture my soul. Rediscovering hobbies from my teenage and young adult years has been an inspirational journey, leading me to new and exciting discoveries every day.

I sense the readiness to unveil the stories that have long been confined within. It’s a moment of liberation, a journey towards freedom for both the soul and mind. The oppressive clouds and dark fog that loomed over me for the past few years have dissipated, allowing clarity to permeate my vision. No longer are my senses shrouded; my ears are attuned to the whispers of spirits, eager to absorb their wisdom and guidance.

This marks a newfound readiness to embrace life once more.

Until next time,

Kooky